:D Best party last night. Had it's ups and downs, but what party doesn't? I looked great, and felt great- that's what made the difference. Me and Carmen litterarelly went crazy on the dance-floor. Everyone was looking at us, laughing with us and clapping their hands to the beat. Then they came on. This slxxt, Jennifer, was all around Riley ♥. I swear I could slap her. That bxtch. And he seemed to like it, considering her breast cup is a C.
At one point, Sophia was taking a picture of Riley, when i came in and put my arm around his waist, to be in the picture. And so then he smiled and put his arm around my shoudler. (In the picture I look wasted- Riley looks seexy xD ). So after the picture was done he went "Thanks, Ade" and I get so nervous around him I just looked at my drink. I swear i could have slapped myself. But then as a joke, i went, "Yeah, I make you look good, eh?" and he started asking me about my cousin, if he was okay. because, he knows him, and he has cancer. so i was all yeah he's getting better, and stuff. and then Carmen pulled me away from him to get a picture with me. i kindof shot her the evils, though she didn't see, and when the picture was finish i turned around to talk to him, but he wasn;t there. blahh xD but i had so much fun with everyone. hilarious times.♥ i love my friends., i'm so fxkking grateful to have them.
Then came the rock songs. "TNT", "FIRE," <3 <3
I started dancing with Michael, who stunk like Link that night xD, and I saw Carmen with Riley,but as a joke, I guess. So i didn't mind. But i really wanted to go up to him and start dancing, you know, with him. i kept telling myself that if i didn't, i'd regret it. but the song finished before i had the time to pull the nerves to, and he left with Ray outside, to do who knows what. So i was kindof bummed, considering it was the last party before summer, and that i only had a week to see him before two whole months. >:[ so yeah. i hope i get the nerves to talk to him and hug him before summer comes along, which only is a week.
I've realised that i need to work with God. he can't just thrust luck upon me. i have to be more open, and go out there and fight , not just sulk inside wondering why life is lucky to some and not others. so i'm here and ready to start again. it's me again. i'm no longer derpressed, sure i'll have some moments , but i'll remind myself what a wonderful life i have, and try to get better. because i'm extremely lucky, who cares if i'm not one of those slxxts who get all the guys and all the shoes, purses, clothes..? i'm going to do something with my life. and some day, they'll come around and see what a big mistake they've done, choosing that path. i believe that now.
Have to go out, going to dinner with my family. it's Fathers day after all. Ilu Daddy ♥ ;]]
Well, the final word:
Ade's back guys. Hold on tight.
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