(: it`s been loong. haha. well, i can officially say : IT`S SUMMER BBY <3 Woot (: though it's also pretty sad. two months without everyonee D: how do i cope with that year after year? we finished school on Friday, at 1, but we snuk out at 12, so we went to buy our lunch at Tesco's, then made our way to the park (: how funn was thaat. Everyone wanted to take the bus, but me and four other friends wanted to walk there. for the heck of it. what, it's summer! :D so they let us do our thing, didn't want to bother convincing us to come with them on the bus, since it was 26 degrees Celsius out (: so we chatted along our way, bought ice-cream, dropped the ice-cream, bought another one, wasted our money :] two policeman checked us out. that was hilarious. we just burst out laughing. aaah i love them [:
so we finally got to the park, and went to change into our bikinis at the toilets. when we came out, these sort-of chav looking guys whistled at us. And (name) had this fit, and started panicking that they'd like rxxpe us, so we hurried to where we were supposed to meet everyone. After having waited there for like half an hour we realised we were supposed to meet them like half way cross the park, so off we went all five of us. Then we finally found them after having done a week's worth of walking, and had the craziest water/shaving cream/flour fight in the history of water/shaving cream/flour fights. I was getting kind of pxxssed off because the guys, includin Riley, were following the sluts around. So instead of getting really mad and close up i went to some less popular guys and had fun . So yeah, crazy times. My ex showed up after like 2 hours, which was pretty akward. But no, we're still friends so it was fine. The cops came too . They said we were attracting too much attention to us and our school o: we had a laugh at that one. no, but serisouly some of my friends were going pretty wild. I swear i didn't do anything that would avert the cops. promise.
so it's been two days from summer. haven't felt much of a difference. but i guess the feeling will kick in (: i'm going to re-do my blog after this post. want to make it seexier. haha.
you know how before in my posts i've mentioned about having those sort of sicking feelings? Well another one happened to me last night. Me and my Dad were going to pick up my sister from her friends house, when I had this really bad feeling about the trip. Well , being Lana,i started to freak out going " we're going to crash. something bad's going to happen. we have to stay home". But my dad had to go pick Maia up and I didn't want to stay home alone, so i came along. And guess what? Dad forgot the car keys so we had to come up home to get them. Then , when we got to the car, we had left the roof open, and since there had been torrential rains, well..do the maths (: i was going all "AHA! TOLD YOU". But I still was worried about the car crash.So inside my hear, i was going all "okay, if i live throught this trip and there isn't any car crash whatsoever, not even a tiny dent/scratch on the Jeep, I promise to get to know Riley better in the fall, and eventually tell him how I feel about him, then possible ask him out". And you know what? There wasn't any car crash at all. No dent. No scratch.
I guess me and Riley were mean to be, even though he chases sluts all day.
(:
Summer '09 coming to shine. I can feel it.
Sunday, 28 June 2009
Sunday, 21 June 2009
"Tomorrow's coming. But I can wait ♥"
:D Best party last night. Had it's ups and downs, but what party doesn't? I looked great, and felt great- that's what made the difference. Me and Carmen litterarelly went crazy on the dance-floor. Everyone was looking at us, laughing with us and clapping their hands to the beat. Then they came on. This slxxt, Jennifer, was all around Riley ♥. I swear I could slap her. That bxtch. And he seemed to like it, considering her breast cup is a C.
At one point, Sophia was taking a picture of Riley, when i came in and put my arm around his waist, to be in the picture. And so then he smiled and put his arm around my shoudler. (In the picture I look wasted- Riley looks seexy xD ). So after the picture was done he went "Thanks, Ade" and I get so nervous around him I just looked at my drink. I swear i could have slapped myself. But then as a joke, i went, "Yeah, I make you look good, eh?" and he started asking me about my cousin, if he was okay. because, he knows him, and he has cancer. so i was all yeah he's getting better, and stuff. and then Carmen pulled me away from him to get a picture with me. i kindof shot her the evils, though she didn't see, and when the picture was finish i turned around to talk to him, but he wasn;t there. blahh xD but i had so much fun with everyone. hilarious times.♥ i love my friends., i'm so fxkking grateful to have them.
Then came the rock songs. "TNT", "FIRE," <3 <3
I started dancing with Michael, who stunk like Link that night xD, and I saw Carmen with Riley,but as a joke, I guess. So i didn't mind. But i really wanted to go up to him and start dancing, you know, with him. i kept telling myself that if i didn't, i'd regret it. but the song finished before i had the time to pull the nerves to, and he left with Ray outside, to do who knows what. So i was kindof bummed, considering it was the last party before summer, and that i only had a week to see him before two whole months. >:[ so yeah. i hope i get the nerves to talk to him and hug him before summer comes along, which only is a week.
I've realised that i need to work with God. he can't just thrust luck upon me. i have to be more open, and go out there and fight , not just sulk inside wondering why life is lucky to some and not others. so i'm here and ready to start again. it's me again. i'm no longer derpressed, sure i'll have some moments , but i'll remind myself what a wonderful life i have, and try to get better. because i'm extremely lucky, who cares if i'm not one of those slxxts who get all the guys and all the shoes, purses, clothes..? i'm going to do something with my life. and some day, they'll come around and see what a big mistake they've done, choosing that path. i believe that now.
Have to go out, going to dinner with my family. it's Fathers day after all. Ilu Daddy ♥ ;]]
Well, the final word:
Ade's back guys. Hold on tight.
[:
At one point, Sophia was taking a picture of Riley, when i came in and put my arm around his waist, to be in the picture. And so then he smiled and put his arm around my shoudler. (In the picture I look wasted- Riley looks seexy xD ). So after the picture was done he went "Thanks, Ade" and I get so nervous around him I just looked at my drink. I swear i could have slapped myself. But then as a joke, i went, "Yeah, I make you look good, eh?" and he started asking me about my cousin, if he was okay. because, he knows him, and he has cancer. so i was all yeah he's getting better, and stuff. and then Carmen pulled me away from him to get a picture with me. i kindof shot her the evils, though she didn't see, and when the picture was finish i turned around to talk to him, but he wasn;t there. blahh xD but i had so much fun with everyone. hilarious times.♥ i love my friends., i'm so fxkking grateful to have them.
Then came the rock songs. "TNT", "FIRE," <3 <3
I started dancing with Michael, who stunk like Link that night xD, and I saw Carmen with Riley,but as a joke, I guess. So i didn't mind. But i really wanted to go up to him and start dancing, you know, with him. i kept telling myself that if i didn't, i'd regret it. but the song finished before i had the time to pull the nerves to, and he left with Ray outside, to do who knows what. So i was kindof bummed, considering it was the last party before summer, and that i only had a week to see him before two whole months. >:[ so yeah. i hope i get the nerves to talk to him and hug him before summer comes along, which only is a week.
I've realised that i need to work with God. he can't just thrust luck upon me. i have to be more open, and go out there and fight , not just sulk inside wondering why life is lucky to some and not others. so i'm here and ready to start again. it's me again. i'm no longer derpressed, sure i'll have some moments , but i'll remind myself what a wonderful life i have, and try to get better. because i'm extremely lucky, who cares if i'm not one of those slxxts who get all the guys and all the shoes, purses, clothes..? i'm going to do something with my life. and some day, they'll come around and see what a big mistake they've done, choosing that path. i believe that now.
Have to go out, going to dinner with my family. it's Fathers day after all. Ilu Daddy ♥ ;]]
Well, the final word:
Ade's back guys. Hold on tight.
[:
Tuesday, 16 June 2009
"There is only one way out. So stop trying to find loopholes, and live it to the maximum. Somethin i've only just learn ♥"
Am i really grasping the reality of it? Summers coming. In just about under two weeks. Two months away from anything reminding me of what I've been through the past two months. Not that;s it's drastic. But am i willing of that? No friends, no nothing. No Riley... No Michael, no Oliver, no Lana, Seb, Becca, Hanna, Alex, Lexy...No Ray, no Tyler. No Mark or Mitchel. No Summer, no Marina. I'll miss them so much. Strangely I don't want the last day to come around.I'm practically dreading it. I almost feel like crying. What the hell is wrong with me?...
There it is. The first tear. Wtf... D:
This is just the small post. For right now. This moment.
There it is. The first tear. Wtf... D:
This is just the small post. For right now. This moment.
Monday, 15 June 2009
"I can't control the volume of my voice ♥"
(: Why hello there earthlings.
Before I get into Ade-mode, I'd just like to thank everyone who has followed my blog. I was freaking out when I signed in one day and I had gone from 5 followers to 11. (: I'm very thankful, esppecially since I haven't been as dedicated as ever to this blog. Well, that shall change. I promise to write more regularly- probably nearly every day or something. Now if you want to read is another topic (: Haha.
So, my shopping day has turned out being me sitting at my mom's office as she has an "unexpected meeting" with her colegues. Though her office is pretty cool (: kindof really homy. And the collegues are very nice. One just barged into the room I'm in with my mom because she wanted to meet me. She's very pretty, with barbie-like blonde hair, though it was a bit akways because we were wearing the same shirt (x but i shan't take offense since she's really young and hip and pretty. She just stood there beaming at me, and going all "look how pretty she is", to my mom and asking me about school and stuff. I like her. (: Though I had to explain for like the hundreth time WHY I'm not a shcool. "Teachers rebellion", I smiled, stopping myself into going into a huge lecture why that's just so awesome and should happen more frequently- my mom gave me the evils. Well, only because I stated that to the doorman at some posh shop (x
Well, anyways, Mom promised to take me shopping after- I'll finally get my converse and that "FUSSY<3" Retro Dress that I'll wear to Alexa's partayy (:
Riley ♥ passed by with Michael, when I was at the shop with my mom.
He saw me and waved (: haa.
Apparently he does football at this near-by park with Mike (:
Before I get into Ade-mode, I'd just like to thank everyone who has followed my blog. I was freaking out when I signed in one day and I had gone from 5 followers to 11. (: I'm very thankful, esppecially since I haven't been as dedicated as ever to this blog. Well, that shall change. I promise to write more regularly- probably nearly every day or something. Now if you want to read is another topic (: Haha.
So, my shopping day has turned out being me sitting at my mom's office as she has an "unexpected meeting" with her colegues. Though her office is pretty cool (: kindof really homy. And the collegues are very nice. One just barged into the room I'm in with my mom because she wanted to meet me. She's very pretty, with barbie-like blonde hair, though it was a bit akways because we were wearing the same shirt (x but i shan't take offense since she's really young and hip and pretty. She just stood there beaming at me, and going all "look how pretty she is", to my mom and asking me about school and stuff. I like her. (: Though I had to explain for like the hundreth time WHY I'm not a shcool. "Teachers rebellion", I smiled, stopping myself into going into a huge lecture why that's just so awesome and should happen more frequently- my mom gave me the evils. Well, only because I stated that to the doorman at some posh shop (x
Well, anyways, Mom promised to take me shopping after- I'll finally get my converse and that "FUSSY<3" Retro Dress that I'll wear to Alexa's partayy (:
Riley ♥ passed by with Michael, when I was at the shop with my mom.
He saw me and waved (: haa.
Apparently he does football at this near-by park with Mike (:
You know how everyone has these crazy fantasies that you spend your whole life dreaming about but never get the chance to do? Well, since it's summer and I have OCD , I feel like making a list of mine...
FANTASIES THAT I VOW TO COMPLETE BEFORE I TURN 21.
1) throw a phone at something (that I have fufilled thanks to Jake's un-breakable phone)
2) cry with mascara on
3) walk/dance/kiss in torrential rain
4) go clifft diving
5) walk into a shop and break all the glass bottles of coke and then walk out like nothing happened.
There we go.
(x A ce soir earthlings.
Sunday, 14 June 2009
"Tomorrow is never here ♥"
Well here it is, boys and girls (: , my post!
Well, wellm I've been counting: 2 months and 5 days `till my birthday! Wow.
I'll be entering the teen-age. Or, as some people may call it, the dark perious with rough hormonic hurricanes. I can't wait, at all. 13... A new start. A clean slate. It's going to be an awesome start, my nerves are predicting. Unlike the last -oh, two months of my life, which have sucked. Sucked like hell.
Well I had this feeling when I woke up, that it would be a shxxty day. I was tired and my head was spinning. The morning part kindof was - just fumbled around my room with my headache, cheking in on Stardoll and sitting glue to I'm A Celebrity Get Me Out Of Here '09 rerun. The after noon part wasn't so bad. Went down to the park; sketched an amazing tree that had like only two branches, listening to music. Then my sister took me out for dinner- we went to some adorable salad garden. It was outised and the atmosphere was amazing- fairy lights, broken benches, the smell of smoke and mud- and the food was really good (: though i chocked on an artichoke. Haha.
As I was saying...My parents are kindof being harrasing.Like wanting to know everything.Urgh, I'm so confused right now. I'm guessing the hormones are kicking in- one moment i'm depressed the next im extatic. - BIPOLAR (:-.
If this is some sort of clue of ot what's awaiting me in 2 months and 5 days, I don't think I want to be a teenager.
definition of teenager (in ade's words): a confused mix-age of zits and mood swings who crave attention and at times space. Self confidence descends, as depression frequency augmences- if that's a word.
Hehe (:
At least I've got my niches; music, writting and drawing.
All time low ♥ - newest music obsession.
Need to buy their CD, first, though. Youtube's proabaly sick of me xD
Well summer's creeping in by the hours. So much to do, to organise... It's crazy. I've got a week off school thanks to the rebellion of teacher at my school. Hallelujua. (: Though i've been a recluse for three days. In too much of a sxxty mood to answer those texts and phone calls. My mom wants me to get out of the house tomorrow, so we're going shopping. I'm fine with that. [:
Well , back to summer. When we get back at shcool next week, they'll be two days and ONE WEEK left of school. Omfg. I need to make a list.
SUMMER TO-DO LIST:
1) Buy converse (the perfect opurtunity-tomorrow )
2) Buy All Time Low CD.
3) Organise summer clothes and see what to get.
4) Beg for myspace.
5) Kiss someone. I want a Summer Love ;)
6) Buy that Retro Dress I saw at FUSSY <3 last week.
7) Grow hair. (:
I think that's a good start.
Riley ♥
My new love interest (: Haha.
There's so much about him...
He said he'd go out with me because I was pretty , when Aless asked him (just randomly, of course , after asking him about loads of other girls). But the thing is,I don't want him to go out with me because of that. I want him to like me. Well , time will decide... (:
So yeah,plans for tomorrow: shopping with Mom, working...I have a huge party coming up and I need a formal. White? I have this idea in my head. I think I'll sketch it out,and post it here, so you see what I mean. For the party, I mean. But yeah,who would design it for me? And as if Mom would "waste" money on that.
(x A demain, faithful bloggers.
Well, wellm I've been counting: 2 months and 5 days `till my birthday! Wow.
I'll be entering the teen-age. Or, as some people may call it, the dark perious with rough hormonic hurricanes. I can't wait, at all. 13... A new start. A clean slate. It's going to be an awesome start, my nerves are predicting. Unlike the last -oh, two months of my life, which have sucked. Sucked like hell.
Well I had this feeling when I woke up, that it would be a shxxty day. I was tired and my head was spinning. The morning part kindof was - just fumbled around my room with my headache, cheking in on Stardoll and sitting glue to I'm A Celebrity Get Me Out Of Here '09 rerun. The after noon part wasn't so bad. Went down to the park; sketched an amazing tree that had like only two branches, listening to music. Then my sister took me out for dinner- we went to some adorable salad garden. It was outised and the atmosphere was amazing- fairy lights, broken benches, the smell of smoke and mud- and the food was really good (: though i chocked on an artichoke. Haha.
As I was saying...My parents are kindof being harrasing.Like wanting to know everything.Urgh, I'm so confused right now. I'm guessing the hormones are kicking in- one moment i'm depressed the next im extatic. - BIPOLAR (:-.
If this is some sort of clue of ot what's awaiting me in 2 months and 5 days, I don't think I want to be a teenager.
definition of teenager (in ade's words): a confused mix-age of zits and mood swings who crave attention and at times space. Self confidence descends, as depression frequency augmences- if that's a word.
Hehe (:
At least I've got my niches; music, writting and drawing.
All time low ♥ - newest music obsession.
Need to buy their CD, first, though. Youtube's proabaly sick of me xD
Well summer's creeping in by the hours. So much to do, to organise... It's crazy. I've got a week off school thanks to the rebellion of teacher at my school. Hallelujua. (: Though i've been a recluse for three days. In too much of a sxxty mood to answer those texts and phone calls. My mom wants me to get out of the house tomorrow, so we're going shopping. I'm fine with that. [:
Well , back to summer. When we get back at shcool next week, they'll be two days and ONE WEEK left of school. Omfg. I need to make a list.
SUMMER TO-DO LIST:
1) Buy converse (the perfect opurtunity-tomorrow )
2) Buy All Time Low CD.
3) Organise summer clothes and see what to get.
4) Beg for myspace.
5) Kiss someone. I want a Summer Love ;)
6) Buy that Retro Dress I saw at FUSSY <3 last week.
7) Grow hair. (:
I think that's a good start.
Riley ♥
My new love interest (: Haha.
There's so much about him...
He said he'd go out with me because I was pretty , when Aless asked him (just randomly, of course , after asking him about loads of other girls). But the thing is,I don't want him to go out with me because of that. I want him to like me. Well , time will decide... (:
So yeah,plans for tomorrow: shopping with Mom, working...I have a huge party coming up and I need a formal. White? I have this idea in my head. I think I'll sketch it out,and post it here, so you see what I mean. For the party, I mean. But yeah,who would design it for me? And as if Mom would "waste" money on that.
(x A demain, faithful bloggers.
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